Peppermint Hot Chocolate Float & Feeling Normal
On Sunday evening, after having spent a lovely few days with my brother and his family who are visiting from Canada and with my parents who have snow-birded in, the hubs and I took the kids for a walk to see all of our neighbors’ homes glittering with lights. M loves little lights and delighted anew at each house we passed. J was a bit more anxious to get back home, partly because, as a nearly-five-year-old, he’s a bit less delighted with lights than his wee sister and partly because we’d promised him a post-walk treat.
As we walked our block I became conscious of how oddly I’d been acting. I would smile and laugh at something silly that one of my kids had done. Then I would get quiet, purse my lips, try to stop tears from welling up as I thought about all those sweet little kids, all their mourning parents, as I realized again how lucky I am and how quickly that luckiness could slip away. Then I’d set my shoulders back in place, ruffle the curls on my baby’s head and shout out a quick “J, you’re so awesome” before returning to the here-and-now and pointing out something twinkling for them to look at. And I would then be smiling and laughing at their antics again.
It’s like there are these hiccups of sadness that keep interrupting.
It feels wrong and weird to be celebrating and enjoying the holiday season given the very recent horrendous tragedy in Connecticut. And while I feel anything but normal right now, I do want things to be normal and fun for my kids.
It also feels wrong and weird to write a blog post and then plop in a tasty recipe with a pretty picture. But honestly, I don’t know what else to do. I’m not sure when things will feel like they’re back to normal again, or even if they should. But like going for walks with my kids, it seems that making food, taking and editing pictures and writing gives me long moments without any hiccups. And that makes it easier for me to act a bit more normally and, hopefully, to give my kids the kind of Christmas they’ve been looking forward to.
This is the treat J was looking forward to having after our walk Sunday night. You’ll need to make some of my Candy Cane Hot Chocolate Powder before you begin. Don’t worry, it’s easy. And the kids will like helping you bash the pieces of candy cane.
- 2 tbsp candy cane hot chocolate powder
- 8 ounces hot water
- a big scoop of chocolate ice cream (at least ⅓ of a cup)
- Measure the candy cane hot chocolate powder into a mug. Add the hot water. Stir until all or most of the candy cane pieces are dissolved. Top with the scoop of ice cream. Don’t stir. Just let it float on top and slowly melt in as you sip.